Never guna get over it...

I just keep wishing that things could have been different. I've thought so many crazy thoughts, and they all just go around in circles. I think of her every day. Cannot believe that I cannot just phone her, and that we will go get chocolate cake and coffee together. There are so many things I am glad that she never saw, but  so many I wish she knew about. It's never going to be any better. This is just the way that it is.