Hoobastank

I was walking today, innocently enjoying nature and I listened to my walkman again for the first time in months. Maybe it's been a year, I don't remember. Then that song came on again and I almost fast forwarded it. I decided to let it hurt me. I decided to go there to the pain place again. I couldn't resist picking at the scab, and I worked it until my heart bled again. It felt good to know that it's still there. Maybe it hurts even worse now, because it's such an old, deep wound. Anyway, it hurts to hurt and it hurts to not hurt.

The pain is not mortal though, it's quite possible to live with it. That's the shocking thing to me: that pain like this is all just another dimension of life. That seems like such an impossible thing, but it's true. As soon as you take your first breath, you begin a process of learning to carry your pain. What a wonder! We are not supposed to live painless, we are destined to learn to live with our pain.

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just wish you could know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just wish you could know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Thank you guys for articulating the pain of my regrets