I just couldn't post this before

He graduated at the top of his class. He's a genius. He got a good education. He is getting a full ride to Davis. I talked to him last week, and he's doing great. He compartmentalizes everything that life is, and he is making it work. He's a good boy.

Never guna get over it...

I just keep wishing that things could have been different. I've thought so many crazy thoughts, and they all just go around in circles. I think of her every day. Cannot believe that I cannot just phone her, and that we will go get chocolate cake and coffee together. There are so many things I am glad that she never saw, but  so many I wish she knew about. It's never going to be any better. This is just the way that it is.